here i m. wah sian seh cannot fall asleep. than come n blog lo. hmmm say about what? i also don't know leh. my brain is like blank now. cannot think of any thing. let me think. early in de morning reach school. as usual i m de most early to reach de. so i sit outside libary there lo. than one by one my class mate come. wahahaha. today i m pronouce DEAD. they thought i m sick or what. wahahaha say i look qiao cui. i yo, hai hao la. still wouldn't die yet la. hahaha. than today got basic drawing lesson lo. my colouring n toning sux. eeerrr. but i quite like de sunflower i draw today. i think hor i add colour le would than destroy de whole thing man. scared scared. than after lesson me n iris walk to orchard. wooo hooo people. bugis is actually near to orchard! just in case u guys don't know. eat the wan ton mee at heeren. i left something there too. secret** than i bought myself mozoki. so kawaii ne. long time since i bought myself a key chian like that de toy liao. than hor i so freak off man i go de shop sell de t shirt one hor. de pattern i want got liao leh. pek chek. eeerrrgggg, but i ya. nevermind la. i got the crown one. i saw a small small crown de. feel like buying leh. but hor is like bu shi ji. cannot wear out also. hai yo. sian. hahaha. tomorrow 2D n 3D lesson. hohohoh lou han yu. =X i m DEAD! hahaha cause some one steal my heart away n don't wanna return it to me. lalalalalalalalalalala. 12:29 AM

To every girl that dresses cute not
skanky.


To every girl who wants to be called beautiful not
hot.


To every girl that will spend her whole day looking
for the perfect present for you.


To every girl who gets her heart broken because
he chose that b*tch instead.


To every girl that would die to have a decent
boyfriend.


To every girl who would just like once to be
treated like a princess.


To every girl that cries at night because of another
heartbreak.


To every girl that won't get down on her knees and
open her mouth just to get a boyfriend.


To every girl that just wants to hold hands.


To every girl that kisses him with meaning.


To every girl who just wishes he cared more.


To every girl who would just once want a guy to
give their jacket up when they are cold.


To every girl who just wants him to call.


To every girl who lies awake at night thinking
about him.


To every girl that just wants to cuddle.


To every girl that just wants to sleep with him
without having s3x.


To every girl that is scared to put her heart out
there again because she has been hurt too many
times or so badly.


To every girl who shows how much she cares
and
gets nothing back.


To every girl that thought maybe this one could be
the one.


To every girl that believes in her dreams.


To every girl that would do anything so she could
achieve those dreams.


To every girl that laughs at stupid stuff when she
actually doesn't think it is funny.


To every girl who is just looking for that one and
only and is having a rough time along the way.


To every girl that has been cheated on because
she is not a s|ut who gives it up to any guy.


To every girl that doesnt want a guy who just
plays
with her emotions but actually cares about how
she feels.


To every girl who wants words backed up with
actions.


To every girl that fell for all the lies only to find
themselves alone in the end.


To every girl that gave her heart away to have it
shoved back in her face.





***how i wish all these can happen to me. can u just cuddle me to sleep when i m afraid or need u? can i b treated like a princess in her own world by u? can u b de one who will hold on tight n never let go? can i just put my head down on your shoulder whenever i m feeling down? can i live in your heart just like how u live in mine? can u don't steal my heart away unknowingly?*** 9:48 PM

tell me?!?! what wrong with me? i feel so so so terrible now. no explaination for this. i very very de xin ku leh. feel like crying but just cry bu chu lai. wo zhen de zhen de hen nan shou. ke yi bu yao zai zhe mo wo le ma? if carry on like this. i will really build a wall around me soon. very soon i jump back to de behind wall of mine. ni ke bu ke yi gei wo yi ge kai xin de xiao rong? rang wo ke yi chang shi ba ni fang xai? ying wei wo zhi dao ni shi zhen de kai xin de. wo si huan ni si huan dao zi ji dou bu zhi dao. bu rang ni zhi dao ye shi ying wei wo hen hai pa. wo zhen de hen xiang guang ming zhen da de rang ni zhi dao wo zhen de zhen de hao xin huan ni. ke shi wo xiang zhe ying gai hui shi wo yong yuan de mi mi. ba ni fang zai wo xin li de mo yi ge jiao luo. cause u r de some one i really cherish alot. wo hao xi huan ni! ni dong bu dong? 11:30 PM

Ai Shang Ni De Ren Shi Wo?
Wei She Me Yi Xiang Qing Yuan De Ren Hui Nan Gou.
Wei She Me Dui Ni She Bu De Zhen Shi Wo.
Zhen Ai Ni De Ren Hui Nan Gou.

wahahaha. nice song hor. keep loping n loping. but not ai ba. ying wei wo bu gan ai ta. wo ye bu dong de she me shi ai. ke shi wo dong zhi yao ta kuai le. wo jiu hui zhen de zhen de hen kuai le. ying wei ta shi wo hen zhen si de yi ge ren. bu neng shou chu lai. zhi neng ba zhe ge dui ta de xi huan fang zai xin li. bu shi ying wei she me. she ying wei wo pa. hen hai pa, shi qu ta. ke shi na ge ta ying gai shi you le zhi ji xi huan you xiang qu zhen xi de ling yi ge ta ba. hohohoho. i don't know what to say any more. polar should know ba. bunny is stupid hor. y so stupid de? y didn't realise it? till when realise i think is too late. i think i shouldn't have even realise this. i don't wanna become this way. whats wrong with me? can i jus become feeling-less? 3:30 PM

haiz. i also don't know whats wrong. hahahaha. hmmmm, i know ar. but i don't wanna face it. cause i wanna run away. n don't wanna face it. so mao dun. eeerrr. don't say le la. say about today ba. 2D n 3D lesson. 2D is kinda sian la. teacher niam n niam n niam. didn't really teach. yet the 3D lesson is different. is more of serious. doing all those grid model n understand how important horizontal n vertical lines are. i yo. hahaha tons of home work pile up on my table. have to do de. feeling heartach is some thing i never felt before. except when i watching show. but today n yesterday night. i yo. whats wrong la. i don't wanna to become this way. today can sleep late late le. yeppy. cause no school tomorrow. lalalalalalalalalalalalalala. wo yao kuai le! 1:11 AM

let me think. tons of things i wanna blog or maybe type it out ba. but don't really want people to read lo. wahahaha. cause i don't really know who actually will read or vist my blog de. today i watch dvd. hahahaha. some thing happen to me. don't know y la. got a strong feeling i might jump back to who i m last time. i know i m some one who is quite complicated in thinking. but i just wanna b simple. can't i? haiz. if u guys know me. u should know i m some one who really can b happy over small things. cause i know i m complicated enough. so small things which i didn't expect i will b super happy. if i m jumping back to my old self. what would i become? i cannot imagine. really cannot. i know i have change. i know. when i sit down or travelling from place to place. often i will b thinking of things. like putting all the puzzle piece together. for me, some time i have the clear picture. but i don't wanna look at it. cause i know i will b dissapointed. so i choose to bluff myself. till de end i cannot bluff myself i have to face it. runing away from problem? hmmm maybe yes maybe no. cause some time is not my own problem at all ar. hmmmm. something keep appearing in my mind recently i really don't know y. i actually fall for that person. think n think also get not answer. no link also. but now i m learning how to put down. cause i know that i m slowly having feelings for some one. i m very confirm this time these kind of feeling is so different or can i say totally different from all those like or crush i ever had. i just feel so so so so different or i never ever had this kind of feeling before. i don't even know how to explain. or can i say no words can b use to describe. i can say i feel happy. i know deep in my heart. i can't be his one or can i say i m not? i told polar about this. she is de first one to know. she ask me. so u going to tell or not going to tell only two choices ma. my answer is obvious. i think as time goes by i i will really like de person even more. but i just want him to b happy. thats all i want. i hate to irritated people. cause i know i m irritating freak. haiz. i very scared de lo. so some time i keep pulling myself back. oh ya any guys who reading this hor. please don't assume is yourself n bhb hor. wahahaha. no la no la. just kidding only la. scully is u huh. lalalala. hahahahahaha. k la i go org liao. hehe oh ya today i have my figure drawing. learn how to draw hand n foot. wahahah de teacher funny leh draw his hand n foot. n keep talking about ebay selling babys n how to buy stock. n buy which stock better. i yo. hehe fun la. tomorrow basic drawing again. i yo. faint. 12:53 AM

today is sunday. wahahaha tomorrow is monday blues. wakakaka.now me ne watch devil beside me. hmmm just get one sentense registered in my mind which is my msn sub nick now. nu shen dao zui nan shen, dui fang shi bu hui zhen si ni de. hmmm maybe its true ba. wahahaha i don't know also. oh ya oh ya. yesterday i went out to orchard n i got my self two t shirt leh! happy, cause one of them is a big big crown picture printn another one is mickey de! oh no i can't wait to wear it tomorrow. ah huh, n today is my brother birthday. happy birthday bro. hahaha. oh ya tomorrow jun hui chalet leh. actually still worried lo. hmmm go there also know no one. sian man. still bring the big big port follio bag. biang a. ma chiam very "pro" leh. eeerrr. n hope people don't kill me with killer eyes ar. hehe. oh ya i got myself a crown belt that day also le! wahahaha. so happy. i think i now only thing i really need is a watch n mp3 ba. sian ar sian ar. later i think i going to bedok lo. idiotic man need to get de permenent marker. to do my home work need to pass up tomorrow. let me think what home work i got ar. hmmm history project de thing. about 3 more figure drawing. finish up the toning for basic drawing. 2D studies de circle thing. collect post card. 3D studies need to do the box, i actually finish liao leh. hahaha but have not really paste it yet. hmmm n 100 words on horizontal n vertical line again. aaaarrrrggggg. tomorrow is ceramics class! yeppy! can see how ke lian de fat bitch is. hohohohoho. i so bad ar. than photography class. need to pass up my work. need to get the marker ready man. idiotic. n jun hui chalet. i think hor go there can see jun hui is ok ok ba. but hor i most happy thing is BBQ! yeah yeah yeah! long time no BBQ le. n kor kor say he will buy my favourite food of BBQ! MARSH MELLOW~~~ yeppy! lalalalalalala. 1:44 PM

hohoho. i m here to vent my anger!!! eeerrr. today ne have my basic drawing class. as usual i m still a complete idiot in toning. hahahaha. but i wil try to pick up the skill. haiz. got scolding today, not i don't understand simple english is some time the teacher actually speak soft la. biang a, cannot hear properly la. i sometime got hearing problem la. some more the room so big n echo so much. hmmm lucky la i do de right method in the end. but still need lotsa practice. hmmm after my lesson i went to schoold libary. lend two books which is bloody damn heavy lo. eeeerrrr, make me very pek chek also la. will be continue in the later part of this post. hmmm so i went to meet mit mit at bugis. went to makan de mos burger. try the new burger. not bad la. like the one i aways eat lo. suddenly forget what name. i ya don't care la. it is jus egg and chicken and onion in between of the rice burger. so after lunch we went to watson so idiot. my libary books actually got the beep sound when pass those "gates" lo. idiot. than i walk mit mit back to her office n i went to carrefour. cause teacher say is cheaper to buy de cutting matt there. bloody damn hell i walk back to nafa book shop buy my layout pad and saw the price of cutting matt there. biang a. 90 cent cheaper! what the hell is that. no logic lo. i walk so far hor. is 90 cent expencive. and i walk pass the stupid thing. it beep again lo. so malu. ma chiam i steal things!!! GGGGRRRR! but hor i got myself a princess belt at only 10 bucks!!! wahahaha finally. so idiot hor actually the money is meant to buy material de. hahaha. cannot tahan la. cheap leh so i buy lo. hahahaha.than walk to bus stop. i tell u all hor. my bones r breaking into don't know how many pieces lo. so heavy leh. near sprain my hand. phewwww lucky man. hahaha. than come back home sleep and just finish de horizontal n vertical lines lo. later going to do some home work. figure drawing. hehe!




have to do some thing like the above for basic drawing. wahahaha. jia you ba shu qi. u r heng liao hor. no need draw those will die de. 8:26 PM

wah. it has been some time since i really blog le. hai yo. cause i wanna "run" away from my work a while la. hmmm start school for about a week plus plus le. hmmm. today have our figure drawing lesson. now me ne. cracking my head on how to tone la. our "homework" which i start to do only now. i yo what is wrong with me ne? cause no mood last week. alot of things happen. hahaha. but is ok la. i m still alive n kicking n lalala - ing. every thing is finally over. today when going to lesson pass by de basic drawing lesson. oh gosh. those year one student really is can draw de lo. tomorrow is my basic drawing lesson. how m i going to die? cry. jia lat. so currently got quite alot of home work ma? hmmm let me list out. 3D home work on lines. i think should be about to finish le ba. photography home work 3 transparency. history is have to do project n present on de 18 july 2006. today just have a meeting with my group member. oh no i have to plan the time la. maybe tomorrow go libary if i m not tired. n today de figure drawing need to have about 3 more ba. but i think i m going to re-do some. hehe. than hor need to finish my 3 sketch book. i yo i yo cannot be lazy leh. shu qi. must work hard hor! hahaha to encourage myself ba. tomorrow hope i m not tired than i need to go n buy the other material that r needed let me list down here. hahaha.

- cutting matt
-uhu glue
-metal rular
-ivory card
-1 A4 sketch book
-A3 lay out pad
-permenent marker
-pottery set
-clay

n all listed down. u know what? all need $$$. hahaha. k la i m getting back to my work. or maybe surf de net a while ar. hahaha. do some research ba. =D

9:27 PM

7:49 PM

i wanna love u but i better not touch

i wanna hold u but my senses tell me to stop

i wanna kiss u but i want it too much

i wanna taste u but your lips are venomous poison 2:54 AM

The theory is that you will learn a lot of
little
known facts about those who know you.


1. Start Time: 10.35pm
2. Name: seok kee / shu qi / carol
3. Nickname: sk / bunny / seok
5. Chinese Zodiac: dragon
6. Zodiac: scorpio
7. Hair color: dark brown
8. Eye color: aaaa. should be black but abit brown ba
9. Height: 159cm
10. Favorite Color: lots. but i don't think orange n yellow is a colour i like ba.
11. glasses?: hehe yup.
12. Braces?: nope.
13. Piercing/tattoos?: one pair only
15. Area code: what is this?

******HAVE YOU EVER******
17. Cut your own hair? yup
18. Did you do something in the past
month that you regret?: don't know leh
20. Kissed someone who isn't ur g/f or b/f?: duh. stupid question.
21. Skipped school?: yup.
22. Bungee jumped?: kill me ba.
23. Had sex outside?: nope
24. Dumped someone?: nope
25. Been arrested?: nope
27. Won something?: haiz don't think so ba
30. Been rejected?: yup
31. Been to a funeral?: yup
32. Used a lighter?: yup
33. Been on stage?: yup

*****FAVORITE*****

34. Season: spring n winter n autum
35. Food: aaa. nice food i like lo.
36. Ice cream flavor: chocolate
37. School subject(s): aaa. i don't know leh
38. Person?: hmmm don't know
41. Book(s): i like to read one lo, roald dahl n princess dairy ba.
42. Movie(s): harry potter!
43. Song?: alot leh
44. Park?: don't know leh
45. State: don't know la
46. Place: australia
47. Sport to watch: aaa, i don't watch leh
49. Bands/musicians: hohoho westlife rocks!
50. Letter(s): i don't know leh
51. Restaurant: got nice food one ba
52. Cartoon Character(s): miickey / winnie the pooh / cinamonroll wakakaka
53. TV Station(s): aaa no ba
54. Name for a son: don't know leh
55. Name for a daughter: have a (ke) or a (en) hehe

******DO YOU PREFER******

56. Chocolate or Vanilla?: chocolate! dark one especially
59. Dogs or cats?: doggy
60. Scary movies or comedies?: comedies
61. Short hair or long: ok ok ba
62. Croutons or bacon bits?: bacon bits

****FIRST THINGS THAT COME TO
MIND****

64. Mexicans: ...
65. School: monday start school
66. Grass: the smell of after cutting
67. Cow: milk
68. Canada: i wanna live there
69. Mouse: disgusting

******THE PAST 48 HOURS, HAVE
YOU******

71. Watched a movie?: nope
72. Talked on the phone?: yup
73. Cried?: nearly but nope
74. Threw up?: nahz
75. Drank a glass of water?: yes. even kopi
77. Read a book or magazine?: don't think so
78. Watched TV?: yeah
79. Looked in the mirror?: yup
80. Taken a shower?: yeah.
81. Taken a picture?: yup
82. Listened to music?: yesh
85. Told someone you liked them: bo la. siao 10:35 PM

smell her hair....
Talk to her in movie theatres....
Hold her hand while u talk....
Tell her shes beautiful....
Look her in the eye when u talk to her....
Tell her stupid jokes....
Let her mess with ur hair....
Just walk around wit her....
Look at her like shes the only girl you
see...
Tickle her Even if she says stop....
When she starts swearing at u,tell her u
love her....
Let her fall asleep in ur arms....
GET HER MAD,THEN KISS HER....
Tease her...
Let her tease u back....
kiss her enough, but dont over kiss her....
Stay up wit her all night when shes sick....
Watch her favorite movie....
Kiss her forehead....
Write her letters....
If she asks u 2 go 2 a show with her,go....
Let her wear ur clothes.....
When shes sad,hang out with her....
Buy her ice cream....
Let her take all the photos of u she
wants....
Kiss her in the rain....
And when u fall in love with her tell her 11:02 AM