let me think. tons of things i wanna blog or maybe type it out ba. but don't really want people to read lo. wahahaha. cause i don't really know who actually will read or vist my blog de. today i watch dvd. hahahaha. some thing happen to me. don't know y la. got a strong feeling i might jump back to who i m last time. i know i m some one who is quite complicated in thinking. but i just wanna b simple. can't i? haiz. if u guys know me. u should know i m some one who really can b happy over small things. cause i know i m complicated enough. so small things which i didn't expect i will b super happy. if i m jumping back to my old self. what would i become? i cannot imagine. really cannot. i know i have change. i know. when i sit down or travelling from place to place. often i will b thinking of things. like putting all the puzzle piece together. for me, some time i have the clear picture. but i don't wanna look at it. cause i know i will b dissapointed. so i choose to bluff myself. till de end i cannot bluff myself i have to face it. runing away from problem? hmmm maybe yes maybe no. cause some time is not my own problem at all ar. hmmmm. something keep appearing in my mind recently i really don't know y. i actually fall for that person. think n think also get not answer. no link also. but now i m learning how to put down. cause i know that i m slowly having feelings for some one. i m very confirm this time these kind of feeling is so different or can i say totally different from all those like or crush i ever had. i just feel so so so so different or i never ever had this kind of feeling before. i don't even know how to explain. or can i say no words can b use to describe. i can say i feel happy. i know deep in my heart. i can't be his one or can i say i m not? i told polar about this. she is de first one to know. she ask me. so u going to tell or not going to tell only two choices ma. my answer is obvious. i think as time goes by i i will really like de person even more. but i just want him to b happy. thats all i want. i hate to irritated people. cause i know i m irritating freak. haiz. i very scared de lo. so some time i keep pulling myself back. oh ya any guys who reading this hor. please don't assume is yourself n bhb hor. wahahaha. no la no la. just kidding only la. scully is u huh. lalalala. hahahahahaha. k la i go org liao. hehe oh ya today i have my figure drawing. learn how to draw hand n foot. wahahah de teacher funny leh draw his hand n foot. n keep talking about ebay selling babys n how to buy stock. n buy which stock better. i yo. hehe fun la. tomorrow basic drawing again. i yo. faint. 12:53 AM