As I sat there in English class, I stared at the girl
next
to me.She was my so-called "best friend". I stared
at
her long, silky hair. I wished she were mine, but
she
didn't notice me like that.And I knew it. After
class she walked up to me and asked me for the
notes
she had missed the day before, and I handed them
to
her.She said "thanks" and gave me a kiss on the
cheek. I wanted to tell her. I wanted her to know
that I
don't want to be just friends. I love her, but I'm
just
too
shy. And I don't know why.




11th Grade

The phone rang. It was her on the other end. She
was
in tears, mumbling on and on about how her love
had
broke her heart. She asked me to come over
because
she didn't want to be alone, so I did. As I sat next
to
her on the sofa, I stared at her soft eyes, wishing
she
was mine. After 2 hours, a Drew Barrymore movie,
and three bags of chips, she decided to go to
sleep.
She looked at me, said "thanks," and gave me a
kiss
on the cheek. I want to tell her. I want her to know
that I don't want to be just friends. I love her,
but I'm
just too shy. And I don't know why.



12th Grade

The day before prom she walked to my locker. "My
date is sick," she said. He's not going to go. Well, I
didn't have a date and in 7th grade we made a
promise that if neither of us had dates we would
go
together just as "best friends," so we did. Prom
night
after everything was over I was standing at her
front
door step. I stared at her. She smiled at me and
stared at me with her crystal eyes. I want her to be
mine, but she doesn't think of me like that, and I
know
it. Then she said, "I had the best time,thanks!" and
gave me a kiss on the cheek. I want to tell her. I
want
her to know that I don't want to be just friends.
I love
her, but I'm just too shy. And I don't know why...



Graduation Day

A day passed. A week passed. A month passed.
Before I could blink, it was graduation day. I
watched
as her perfect body floated like an angel up on
stage
to get her diploma. I wanted her to be mine, but she
didn't notice me like that, and I knew it. Before
everyone went home, she came to me in her
smock
and hat, and she cried as I hugged her. Then, she
lifted her head from my shoulder and said, "You're
my
best friend, thanks!" and gave me a kiss on the
cheek. I want to tell her. I want her to know that I
don't
want to be just friends. I love her, but I'm just too
shy.
And I don't know why…



A Few Years Later

Now, I sit in the pews of the church. She is gettin
married,now. I watched her say, "I do" and drive
off
to her new life, married to another man. I wanted
her
to be mine but she didn't see me like that, and I
knew
it. But before she drove away, she came to me and
said, "You came!" She said, "thanks!" and kissed
me
on the cheek.I want to tell her. I want her to know
that
I don't want to be just friends. I love her, but
I'm just
too shy. And I don't know why...



Funeral

yrs passed, and I looked down at the coffin of the
girl
who used to be my best friend." At the service
they
read a diary entry she had wrote in her high school
years. This is what it read: I stare at him wishing
he
were mine. But he doesn't notice me like that, and I
know it. I want to tell him. I want him to know that I
don't want to be just friends. I love him, but I'm
just
too
shy, and I don't know why. I wish he would tell me
he
loved me…i wish I did too…i thought to myself, and
I
cried.


oh my god. after reading this bullentine tears filled my eyes. i m scared. really scared. fear. cause
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i want to b with u! i want to b in your arms! i want u to tell me u love me! i want to grow old with u! i want to put my head down on your shoulder! i want u to hug me tight n never let go! i just want everything of u! but every thing just wouldn't happen. :( i can only cherish u deep in my heart. 3:37 AM